Wishful Dreams

You are the fork to my spoon,

My daun pisang to my nasi lemak,

My vanilla ice cream to my chocolate lava cake.

Without it, I can still live.

Without it, I can still breathe.

Without it, I can still survive.

It seems like enough but tough.

It feels right but incomplete.

It tastes good but flat.

When you just want flowers but I gave you roses.

When you just want to listen to music but I sing for you.

When you just want a house but I gave you a home.

Why are you playing with fire?

Is it because you know I’m a water?

I am tormented by wishful dreams.

Bleed with sorrow.

Bruised in anguish.

Disorient.

Hesitant.

I want to see the light again.

I want to touch the rainbow.

Not just black or white but grey.

-NC

Impression. Perception. Assumption.

Impression
An idea, feeling, or opinion about something or someone, especially one formed without conscious thought or on the basis of little evidence.
When you do something, people will have an opinion on that matter. You can choose whether to give a good impression to people based on what you're doing. Do good, be good and feel good. Ask yourself, what will you get if you impress a human? Will it ever suffice? After all, we are all human.

Perception.
It is how people interpret something. A belief. A judgement. An estimation.
People will judge you based on what you do. It will translate to how they perceive you. No matter how hard you try to give a good impression to people, if they have a negative perception towards you, no matter how good your value is, how great you are as a person, they will find it negative. It's planted in their mind. You cannot force them to think positively of you. Just let it go. Forget it. Live your life.

Assumption.
A thing that is accepted as true or as certain to happen, without proof.
The first thing I learn in Communication studies is to never assume. It will bring you to a disaster. If you are unsure of a matter, by all means please ask. Do not create a conclusion based on what you think is right. There's nothing wrong in asking a question, even though it might portray you as a silly person, it's fine. I've learned that it's better to appear stupid for once rather than for the rest of your life. Assumption kills.

Today, I learned how these three elements affect life as a whole. How disastrous an assumption can be, how perception shaped people and how important impression is. Experience is indeed the best teacher.

Tough life, tough love. I will survive.

NC

#dialoguewithcrazycolleague 2

Me        : Aku rasa macam nak berak.
Mr. MH : Itu masalah kau, bukan masalah aku.
Me        : Aku ingatkan susah senang kita sama-sama.
Mr. MH : .....


-NC-

#dialoguewithcrazycolleague 1

Mr. H : Anis, jom!
Me     : Pegi mana?
Mr. H : Kahwin.
Me     : .....


-NC-

metaphor

You said you like roses.
Do you know that it needs enough care for it to grow?
You have to let it drink a certain amount of fluid.
You have to let it eat a certain amount of solid.
You have to bathe it with enough sunlight.
If you can't meet those requirements, it won't blossomed as it supposed to.

Yes, you gave it all.
Yes, you are not afraid of it thorns.
But did you shine it with enough daylight?

You said you like roses.
Beautiful even from afar.
With one glance, your knees will touch the soil.
One thing you need to know;
once you are hooked, you are in.
There's no turning back.

Are you up for it?
Do you think you are ready?
If you have make up your mind,
come closer.
It will released its authentic fragrance just for you,
unconditionally.

Love,
NC

can't take my eyes off of you

You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
You'd be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much

At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you

Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak

But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you

I love you, baby, and if it's quite alright
I need you, baby, to warm a lonely night
I love you, baby, trust in me when I say
Oh, pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby, let me love you

first not-so-good impression

"Sombong"

"Berlagak"

"Muka minta penampar"

"Tak reti senyum"

These are several statement that people made of me.

These are people's first impression when they see me.

These are what I get, mostly.

It takes maybe three seconds for people to evaluate you and for that person to make an opinion about you based on your facial expressions, body language, mannerisms, demeanor and how you are dressed.

So what's with this first impression?

What happened to "never judge a book by its cover"?

Yes, I don't smile 24/7.

When I don't, my face would looked like as if I'm going to burst into tears. (I kid you not)

Maybe because the shape of my mouth.

Why don't people talk to me first and then evaluate?

So I told my mom about what people say about me when they don't even know me.

And to my great surprise, my mom said she gets that too.

Ahha! Like mother like daughter.

I feel hmm.... relieved that my mother feels me too.

And after some ice breaking session,
after hello, dah makan? and bye,

this is what I get:

"Kau ni gila kan sebenarnya"

Yup.

That I'm friendly,
that I'm talkative,
that I'm "crazy",
so on and so forth.

In my opinion, I think one should not evaluate, assume or come to a conclusion about people before one knows them.
I have to say that I did that.
But I want to change.
I don't want to say anything about other people before I know them.
Let's try your very best not to do that ok Anis?
Why don't we all try to avoid it...
I think we can.
I believe so.

 

Look at that.
Sweet, innocent face.
Ada ke korang cakap tu muka-minta-penampar.
PPPFFFTTT....


Till then,
NC